The Engineer picked me up from Gatwick holding a handmade sign on which he’d written a pet name for me; he stood in the arrivals hall for thirty minutes holding up this 8×11 piece of paper while I went through immigration*, chauffeurs and business associates staring at it with confusion and amusement. I’d told him not to bring flowers because I wanted to jump into his arms. “No problem,” he said. When we arrived at his car, there they were, in the boot instead. “You told me not to bring them in,” he said when I protested. On the way to his, he went old school as we listened to a mixed CD he’d made of all the songs that were important to us. “I got you a sim card,” he told me on the way home, “So you can reach me when I’m on the road.”
At the entrance to his flat were a pair of purple fur-lined slippers for me; they fit perfectly. I dropped my bags in his room; he showed me the shelves he’d cleared for me, and we flopped onto his new bed to make out. We shared the contents of our shag bags and laughed over the fact that I’d brought a lot of things with me that he had bought, so he could return them… and we could find other things we liked.
In his lounge, a pot of my favorite flowers sat on the dining table and a huge bottle of Bailey’s – which he loathes, but I can’t get enough of – was perched on the bookshelf among other bottles of booze. DVDs of a couple of my favorite horror movies were placed into his collection; he’s not a horror fan, but thought it would be fun to watch one with me. In the kitchen: a French press and a bag of dark roast (despite the fact that he’s not a coffee drinker) and two different jars of cranberry sauce in the cupboard. “I know you wanted these for Thanksgiving, and I wasn’t sure which one to get,” he told me. In the bathroom, a bag full of bath bombs so we could take hot baths together on cold days and a bottle of massage oil for our weary fuck-exhausted muscles. He thought of every detail to make me happy and comfortable.
When we fall asleep at night, I’m the big spoon; I wrap my tiny body around his giant frame, and for some reason it feels right. Sometimes he falls asleep on the couch, his head in my lap. I stroke his hair and whisper, “Let’s go to bed, honey.” When we wake up in the morning, he pulls me toward him and holds me tight for a few minutes before diving deep under the covers to spread my legs and lick me, waking up my center and my hunger. He gets ready for work while I drift back off; before he leaves, he comes in, leans down, gives me a kiss with his full lips, and whispers, “I love you, Hummingbird.”
Last night, when he came home, I was sitting on the kitchen counter wearing a zip-down vinyl dress, fishnets, and his red silk tie, mug of mulled wine in hand. “Cup of wine?” I asked quietly as he walked toward me, bathed in candlelight. “No,” he said, never taking his eyes off me. In between kisses, I let soft words dance into his ears: “We still have some toys to play with.” He retrieved a couple of floggers and a bottle of lube from the bedroom; when he returned; he turned me around and gave me the beating I’d been longing for before putting me back on the counter, sliding my copper-colored lace panties down over my legs, and hitching the dress up so he could plunge his lubed-up cock into me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and breathed deeply as he moved in long, slow strokes, building up anticipation for when he pulled me off the counter and bent me over it, pressing my hands to the tiled wall and sinking his fingers deep into my hips. I came twice standing there, my hair spilling out of its band, and once more in his bed – our bed – after he carried me there. Lying underneath him, I unzipped the dress, exposing my pale breasts and belly, the red tie pointing down toward my swollen cunt. I held him to me, whimpering in his ear, calling him “mi amor” in hushed, desperate tones. He was sweating by the time he came; I inhaled the scent of him, and my body unwound.
The duvet glittered with my juices after they dried – a visual presence of our lust. When I’m gone, he’ll still hear my whispers in his ears, and they’ll hold him in their arms until he can make it across the ocean into mine.
*Imagine the immigration officer’s delight when I declared that not only was I here to visit a romantic partner, but also that I’m currently unemployed.